ain ashiqin
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sixteen
ohana
rgsrcy
I want school work to go away,
And never come another day.
Let all my yearmates come and stay;
We'd talk and laugh and shop and play.
And if we were about to pay,
The boss'd say, "Oh, it's okay."
But nothing's ever what I say...
If only things would go my way.
Monday, April 17, 2006
I was crappy today too. Sigh. When can I stop being crappy? When you're finally here? Sigh. I think about you 24 hours a day. I even think of you in my sleep. Which is dream. I still remember last night's. But I shall type it in Malay, so the next paragraph will be all about my dream. You'd probably find it boring, so I guess you can just skip that part. But all those who understand, please don't urmm.. go around telling everybody? Thanks.. =D
Aku tidak ingat mimpiku dari hujung ke hujung. Aku hanya boleh ingat klimaks mimpi itu. Dan aku ingat, dengan jelas sekali, bahawa kau ada di situ. Dalam mimpiku, sebuah pasar jualan murah sedang diadakan di dewan 'multi-purpose' depan rumahku. Dewan itu dikelilingi dan ditutup dengan plastik putih 'translucent'. Pasar itu berada dalam keadaan yang sibuk sekali. Kau dan aku sedang melihat barang-barang yang dijual. Aku ingat, kau memakai baju putih dan seluar pendek biru -- satu daripada 'outfit' yang kau selalu pakai dalam realiti. Tiba-tiba kau memimpin tanganku. Aku terperanjat, tetapi aku pun memegang tanganmu kembali. Kau menarikku 'through a crowd of' pelancung yang berjalan ke arah lain. Kau memberitahuku bahawa kau hendak melihat barang-barang yang dijual di 'corner' pasar itu. Pada masa itu, kau dan aku sudah biasa memimpin tangan. Tiba-tiba, kau 'stare' ke mukaku. Aku hairan betul. Baru aku 'realise', kau melihat ke belakang aku. Aku menoleh, dan terperanjat melihat mak cikku. Sebab aku berani memegang tanganmu apabila betul-betul depan blokku adalah kerana plastik putih itu menghalangi 'view' pasar itu daripada dilihat keluargaku di rumah. Mak cikku memberitahuku bahawa dia akan memberitahu ibuku. Aku menoleh ke arah tingkap bilik ibu bapaku pula. Aku terperanjat betul kerana boleh lihat ibuku berdiri merenungku dari tingkap itu. Untuk menghalangi lebih kecoh daripada berlaku, kau dan aku pun berpisah dan aku pulang. Di rumah, ibuku menanyaku, siapakah lelaki itu tadi? Aku tidak tahu menjawab. Tetapi ibuku lebih kesah tentang soalan lain. Menampakkan ku diam diri, dia tanya, adakah dia matair _____ ? Aku meletakkan 'blank' di situ kerana terlupa nama itu. Yang aku ingat, dia seorang perempuan yang aku tidak suka dalam realiti. Aku pun menjawab tidak. Dia kelihatan betul-betul 'relieved'. Aku juga 'relieved' pada masa itu dan hairan. Hairan kerana dia tidak peduli jika kau matairku. Walaupun itu hanya mimpi sahaja, aku betul-betul, tidak bohong, dapat rasa kau memimpin tanganku dalam mimpi itu. Aku tidak bohong, tetapi aku tidak tahu mengapa. Ia seperti betul-betul berlaku. Aku juga dapat merasa, seperti dalam realiti, rasa terperanjat, takut, panik dan hairan. Aku benar-benar tidak tahu mengapa. Tetapi tidak mengapalah. Kau tidak faham mimpi ini, kau tidak akan tahu. Walaubagaimanapun, aku masih sayang kau. =D
Yup, you skipped it. Ok. I haven't told you guys about the Book Day thing. For RGS Book Day, we have to decorate the front door of our classrooms as the front page of a book we choose as a class. The back door is meant for the summary of the story, so it's like our classrooms are books. Then all of us are assigned characters from the book, and come to school bringing our costumes, accessories and footwear for the character. We would change into it before assembly, then go to assembly in the school hall. Then, during English lesson, we have to act out a skit, based on the story we chose. My class chose Shrek. Trisha will be dressing up as Shrek, and Adriana as Fiona. I am one of the princesses dancing at the ball, don't know which part. I was suppossed to be Jasmine, the princess from Aladin, but I asked for a change in character change, and they said I could any nameless princess. I'm fine with that. It's better than Jasmine. I'm going to wear one of my Hari Raya clothes. When I first tested it out, I looked like an evil queen instead!! But my elder sister lended me some of her accessories and helped me arrange and put them on, and tada! The evil witch looked like a princess! Sheesh. I think I have to stop now. Sigh. I can hear the homework calling me. I might continue another time. Bye for now.
i'm still here.
8:01 pm
