Misoka's Memories :: Can you see me?

Monday, February 05, 2007

This was typed out on 12:48am, 05 February 07, but published on a much later date.

Here to blog again. Basically it's about Footdrill Competition stuff, which was held like on Saturday.

The day before fd com, yearmates and I had problems polishing our boots. Apparently we didn't have enough skill to make it shine like plastic, unlike the other fd commers. Aww mann. Anyway. Even after one hour of polishing the front part only of my right boot, it refused to shine. Within that one hour, I was thinking out loud. But Mona was my audience. No lar, I was talking crap to her. She said I have a lot of fantasies, like I have a little fantasy world on my own. I was telling her how I wished we could just go over the boot once with kiwi and it would shine like plastic. Then I told her maybe we could put nail varnish on our boots as last resort. Then I told her I hope that by polishing my boots, I could cover up my banging mistakes because the boots would shine so much that the judge can't really see. Then I told her we could do the same for our nails too, maybe by buffing. Then we could cover up our salute mistakes. Then I fantasied that the elves from the Elves and the Shoemaker fairytale would come to help us polish our boots at night, then in the morning we could be surprised. Then on a special occasion, we could give them barbie doll shoes. Okay, enough with what I crapped about. Anyway, then when I finally stopped crapping, and after polishing my left boot in silence for a while (Geraldine ma'am was helping me polish my right boot because it didn't shine regardless of one hour of polishing. She said my boot was killing her xD.), I started falling asleep. Serious. Like, when I was polishing, my eyes just close and I seriously fall asleep. But the weird thing was that even when I was asleep, my hand was still polishing my boot in circles. Yearmates were trying to get me awake by all means, for example making kissing sounds, blowing at my face, calling my name, hitting me, etc. But I still kept falling asleep. Hey, but I wasn't sacrificing my task for sleep, okay. I was still polishing. And somehow, my unshiny boot was shinier than Rui Fen's even though I fell asleep so she decided to try 'my method'. I don't know whether it worked, though. Anyway. Then I got thinking to what day it was, so what date the next day would be, then I realised that on the next day, other than fd com, there was also the Love Fiesta at JJC. Then it got me thinking about Valentine's Day and I got emo thinking about some stuff. Then stupid me started crying. Mona was trying to comfort me. I felt so stupid, can? Then I had to go to the toilet and I felt so awkward because I was being stared at and I was trying to cover my face without making it obvious. Anyway.

Later I fell asleep within half an hour of reaching home. I slept at 8:30pm. Amazing, huh? But I was so tired and I knew I had to have enough sleep. But anyway, I woke up again later at 11pm and remembered that I forgot all about my uniform. So yeah, cut off the excessive thread and I was about the go to sleep again when I realised I forgot to tighten my belt. So regardless of being sleepy, I had to take out the unpicker, scissors, white thread and needle. Sigh. I only finished tightening it at 1am, and by then I was already nodding off, so I decided to leave the ironing for the next day.So I went to sleep, and the next day I woke up like half an hour late, which leaves me fifteen minutes to shower, have breakfast and iron my uniform, if you realise. That was impossible and I knew it, but I went on anyway. Then after showering, I was already 10 minutes late, so I had to wake my dad up to ask him to send me to school, which he was already planning to do, anyway. So I got my uniform ironed. Okay, I admit I didn't iron it myself. I just instructed my maid on how to do it properly. Okay yay then I got to school on time.

Then training that morning, I was feeling very energy-ful, and I didn't want to demoralise fd commers, so I put in my best for my personal drill especially jerking. Yeah then I got more encouraged because they said our drill was twice better than on normal practices.

Skipping some stuff, then we went to change. By that time, Diy, Charlotte and Huan Ying were at school already. I love them a lot. They helped a lot when Jiun, Mona, Rui Fen and I were changing into our uniforms. Oh and they also helped us carry all our stuff onto the bus and everywhere. Muacks. I love you guys lots!

Then on the bus, we had to stand and the supporters got to sit down. Not fair, but hey, they were carrying our stuff too, so I didn't really mind. Yeah then I got very very very scared of the competition and I was positive I would screw up, so guess what happened? Yeah, I had to cry. Stupid me. Then yearmates were trying to comfort me for quite a long time, then somehow Jane ma'am saw and started trying to comfort me too. I felt so embarrassed, can? But I couldn't help feeling scared and crying. So even though I was crying very silently, eventually a few ma'ams realised then they were so sweet, trying to tell me jokes and singing. Okay, anyway.

Then. Well, while waiting in the room, we couldn't sit down because we were in our uniforms, but it was so boring, eventually I fell asleep. Yeah, standing up. Then they decided to play games so okay, I stood in the circle but I was still sleepy and nodding off. When I open my eyes after nodding off, the Year 3 ma'ams would be staring at me, so after a while, I forced myself to stay awake but it was so difficult and I kept nodding off. Yeah then we played some games.

Round 1. I admit we kind of screwed up Round 1 and I made quite a number of mistakes because I couldn't concentrate well enough. Apparently, my thoughts and the other squad's commands were enough to confuse me. Anyway, yeah, I got super demoralised but I didn't say anything about it until it was almost the Round 1 results. Then I started demoralising yearmates. I didn't realise then because I really thought there was no hope for us already, so we could have unit lunch and dinner too. Then the miracle happened. We didn't win anything for District, which is already very obvious, but we got through to Round 2. I was so surprised, I was so happy, I was delighted, I was elated. You get my point. But during the break, we couldn't see yearmates and I was starting to miss yearmates a lot. So I told Mona about how much I was missing yearmates and she was missing yearmates too. Afterwards, I found out that they were missing us too. Oh, I was also missing Diy's cookies.

Then we got a classroom to ourselves while waiting for our turn. Apparently, we were going last. Okay so yay, we had more time to prepare. This time, we sat down anyway because we had already sat down when they were announcing the Round 1 results. At first, yearmates and I crapped a bit, but we were all so sleepy that Jiun suggested we sleep for 15 minutes then we continue crapping. So okay, that was what we were going to do, until melodious voices woke us up. Then we decided to clap for every song because the melodious voices were really really very melodious. But the songs those melodious voices sang were very sad. They were very very sad songs. Anyway.

Then yay it was our turn. Actually I was super nervous but I didn't want Round 1 to repeat itself. So I said, "Yay, it's our turn!" and realised how weird it sounded but I kept saying it anyway, so I wouldn't get too scared like in the bus. Anyway, I heard that Geraldine ma'am was feeling unwell so I didn't want to make things worse, plus I didn't want to disappoint the unit, especially yearmates. So I kept telling myself that it was nothing, yay, it was our turn and stuff like that.

Okay, so we fell in. I was getting scared again. Like, really really scared. Because during Round 1, I saw the Year 4'06 ma'ams' faces and they were really really worried. Then who knows Round 1 might repeat itself in Round 2? I was about to break down again but all of a sudden, a voice in me said, "Hey, do you know who your commander is? She is very very smart, you know. Why don't you just trust her? Just trust her. You have to trust her." So that was how I avoided breaking down again. And the voice was right. At first, I worried about what she was thinking, but I reminded myself to focus on my part and just trust her, and hey, we got to box C in no time. It was a right choice. I'm so proud to have a very very very smart commander like her. Thanks to her, we won ourselves second place for Round 2. We were in squad, and I so wanted to cheer, but I had to keep that 'black face expression' on my face and I have to admit it was quite difficult but I managed it somehow. Then when finally we were 'bersurai-ed', I started jumping and squealing. I was seriously happy. I didn't think we would do so well after we screwed up Round 1. But miracles do happen. I was praying the entire time. =) I think everybody was.

Haha then we got roses! One rose per fdcommer. I was like 'awww' inside, but I couldn't say it out loud because I was smiling to much, and anyway, I wouldn't say it out loud. Then obviously, hug yearmates over and over again. Then yay, school cheers. At first we just added the screams to the RI's Unite cheer, then we did our own.

Okay then change out of uniforms. Rui Fen and Jiun and Mona went ahead first, so I became a blur sotong not knowing where to go. So yeah then went up with a group of redcrossers from RGSRCY whom I, being blur, believed to be yearmates until the sick jokes registered in my head and I realised they weren't. But anyway, I just walked on with them until I really felt so awkward and turned around and realised that yearmates were actually behind, but quite a distance away. So I went to them.

At first we opened the door to the 2nd level toilet but it was full so we went up to the 3rd level. There was only one toilet door. Smart Diy decided to open it. We were warning her that it might be a guy's toilet because there was no sign on the door. She ignored our warnings and kicked open the door. The tiles on the walls were pink, that's all me and other yearmates saw. Except for Diy. Diy put her head in and said, "Hello?" Then she saw a guy, changing and half-naked. So she, being a bit slow, scanned him up and down first before realising. Then she realised. So she ran out, saying, "Sorry!" And she was breathing super hard. Like panting. And her face was all red, with her being so overwhelmed. AND her bra strap was showing when she kicked open the toilet door, as always. Haha. Diy is so sick.

Okay, then. Unit dinner. It was okay, lar. Except that yearmates and I were embarrasssing ourselves by running in and out of Yoshinoya, buying bubble teas for the seniors and etcetra etcetra. When Diy and me went out to KFC to buy our food for a while, I thought of the seniors and decided to get them something too because they have been so nice to us. So, every year got something. Fair, in my opnion. Yeah then my year wished Cheryl ma'am a happy 9 days early birthday and all of us sang her a birthday song, but she was like, "It's nine days early!" Haha, I think I understand how she felt.

Then unit bonding was fun. We played lots of games and I sabo-ed Diy and Charlotte sabo-ed Diy badly but Diy still doesn't know what Charlotte did. Then fdcommers got another present each and the fdcommers in our year felt super guilty for not knowing that such a tradition exists.

Yeah then left for home at 9.30pm.

Haha then at Jurong East Interchange, I didn't realise that there was a redcrosser on the same train as me until I saw Jane ma'am and I got such a shock that I freezed in my tracks.

Haha. I just wanted to say that Footdrill Competition'07 was a very memorable experience and I really treasure the memories I got from it a lot. I think yearmates also feel this way. No, I don't think. I know. I'm already starting to miss the trainings a lot. And I also want to say a big thank you to everybody, be it fdcommers, yearmates or supporters, etcetra etcetra. Thanks to all of you, it had been a very very very very wonderful experience for me. Oh and especially Diy and Jia Ying, for constantly encouraging me whenever I feel unconfident. Diy for her smses whenever I thought I would bring the entire squad down. I kept two of them.

One week before the competition: 'Why? Don't give up kay? There's only 1 more week left. Do yr best n make yrmates proud, if not the unit. If yrmates can support, i wna go!'

The night of the competition, 10:29:47pm: 'See? Im still making the cookies with love and energy tau'

Jia Ying for her constant reassurance that yearmates will be there for us. And the one sms which I kept from her.

On the night of the competition: 'Hey dear chill about tomorrow ok? You will rock it so chill and relax good luck'

And those who saw me cry in the bus before the competition. Thanks a billion, because even though I still felt unconfident, I felt sure that there were people around me who were supporting me and cared for me. Really, seriously, thank you.

So. Thanks to everyone, everyone, for making this competition as precious as it is for me, and even though I don't want it to end, just the fact that I was actually a part of this means a lot to me. I know I keep saying thanks but that's the way I feel. Okay, I better stop now before I can't stop saying thanks. But really, thanks a lot.

i'm still here.
12:48 am