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I want school work to go away,
And never come another day.
Let all my yearmates come and stay;
We'd talk and laugh and shop and play.
And if we were about to pay,
The boss'd say, "Oh, it's okay."
But nothing's ever what I say...
If only things would go my way.
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Haha finally the 100th post. No wonder I'm so slow, I blog rather rarely. =/
Suffer. Sufferance. Ain can get rather stupid sometimes. =(
Grahh I haven't been doing much homework but from now on Ain shall try her best to really complete her work on time. I keep rereading my Primary School reports and they go like, 'able to put forth constructive ideas in class'... 'creative and conscientious pupil'... 'good role model'... 'all-rounded student'... 'excels in everything she does'... 'does her work neatly and takes pride in her work'... 'responsible'... and the most !!?? is like, 'has a flair for art'. Like, reading all these stuff makes me remember the kind of person, the kind of student, learner, who I was before I entered RGS. It makes me feel guilty that I actually slacked so much. Especially the comments that went like, 'She will excel'... 'Keep shining. I am proud of you'... 'Continue to strive for excellence.' These comments actually make me feel super guilty of my performance, my general attitude towards learning. To think that they actually once made me feel so good is like... sigh. Now it makes me feel guilty. I should try harder. I should work harder. I should do my homework all on time. Okay, maybe the last one isn't too feasible for now. I know that no matter how hard I try to complete all my homework on time, I never do, thanks to the huge amount we receive. And the fact that I just completely don't do most of them means that I'm missing out on quite a lot. I must try to work harder.
Although, come to think of it, I have been working rather hard the previous term. Okay, maybe not so much in terms of homework, but in terms of sincere effort put in, like revising, paying attention in class, I certainly have improved, though not by a lot. I know why. It must be the mid-term results that opened my eyes, at least for that term. I shall continue to open my eyes widely. That's a pun. Like, continue to realise my mistakes and also to stay awake in class, you know? Okay never mind, Literature is getting into me. =/ I will work hard this term, too. Especially since the EOYs are coming up.
Ahh man. Come to think of it, there's Physics Quiz II tomorrow, and I haven't revised. Never mind, I shall revise half now and leave the other half for tomorrow, since I can't possibly sacrifice too much of my sleep. Sigh. And I have English Orals on Friday, how bad can it get? I am totally unprepared for Orals, but I'm kind of depending on myself to do this okay, unlike last year when I totally screwed up and emerged from the room depressed.
Then come to think of it, I still haven't done my Assignment 1 and 2 for Mathematics. And Assignment 1 was due on Monday. Actually, I would have done it and handed it in if only I knew how to present my answer. Sigh. And my last Mathematics test was really like ARGH. It was the most horrible I ever got, super heart-breaking. I really really mean it. It really broke my heart. Like, I love Mathematics. So how could something like this happen, you know? Sigh. I think Graphs is a stupid thing to get so depressed over and to have your grades pulled down for, but it's going to come out in the EOYs again, damnit. Graphs are kind of like a waste of time, in my opinion. Things like Algebra, Pythagoras theorem, now that's real Mathematics, but Graphs? Eurgh.
ARGH. My Lit Quiz today was like, so depressing. =( In sooth, I guess I do know why I am so sad. =(
Sigh. It's only the third day of school and I'm already so exhausted. Jiayou, Ain, and everyone out there! Like, there's only Thursday and Friday left till the weekends. Sigh. And on both days I have exams. =/
Oh by the way, happy belated birthday, Jiun! I hope you like my card. =D
YOU JERK well.
Okay I shall go revise Physics now; my first attempt at a new start. Toodles, world.
i'm still here.
1:38 am
